YOUR SMILE
That I'll fall in love with you all over again.
It's good having something to refer to. Things that didn't seem apparent at that point of time being so important even the smallest words this moment.
Why does it not distant itself away from me. Why does it not leave me with no tinge of regret at all. Why does it stay by my side. If that was what it meant by perfection, will I still be able to hold on to everything that overcomes me. Just like when I have seemed to have driven it away, it appears right in front of me with such earnest that I can't help it. I just can't help myself sometimes.
Please let an ending arise when I close my eyes, make a wish, keeping it from turning around all over again.
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I really like this excerpt from Rachel Scott's journal.
You said "that's bad"
I said "so what"
You said "He lies"
I said "He's fun"
You said "Please stop"
I said "Shut up"
You said "I love You"
I said "Not now"
But then the matches
Burned my hands,
And he was not there,
To care for me,
He left me,
In the dark alone,
But I was not alone,
You said "I love You"
I said "Why"
You said, "Because I made you"
Ronan Keating (feat. Kate Rusby)'s All Over Again is nice (:
Went to eat the Green Gooey Ice cream at Macs with Eleanor yesterday after school. Boy, was it just smashingly yummy. And she got what she has always yearned for. She "WORE HER furry SUPPORT" yesterday and I could not stop laughing. =)
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Held
Natalie Grant
Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.
Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred numb our sorrow.
The wise hand opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.
(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
AND TO KNOW THAT THE PROMISE WAS
WHEN EVERYTHING FELL WE'LL BE HELD.
Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?
(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'll be held.
I'll never get over you getting over me
Expose
I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time
With all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now and I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me
I try to smile so the hurt wont show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like its here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I found is myself always thinking of you
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me
Oh, no matter what I do
Each nights a lifetime to live through
I cant go on like this, I need your touch
You're the only one I'll ever love
And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me
I'll never get over you getting over
I'll never get over you getting over
I'll never get over you getting over me
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I love the song by You Mi in 200 pounds beauty! It's in the stickam player under Music.
Title : 별 (Byul) (Korean for "star")
Sung by : 유미 (You Mi)
Album : 200 pounds beauty
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi
Translation of YouMi’s version:
the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever
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I want to sing the Christmas balls song!
It was HMT paper 1 and chem today.
All these exams coming up.
I think I'm going mad.
I had a reallly reaaallly SERIOUS discussion today w Eleanor about the different aspects of life. How time has changed things. Weird things that happen that need serious solutions to these SERIOUS problems. There are like so many SERIOUS things that we experience and enjoy. But there are SERIOUS things that we feel awfully disgusted about. SERIOUSLY, I can't express in more SERIOUS words how SERIOUS our conversation went.
Maybe if I get this topic for situational writing. I would be able to do well in it.
chemistry- tough- slept- now must study- drained energy- war- 750mins- fill in the blanks- jiayou _ _!- hair- curly- holiday- chips- ice cream- rolled up bird shit- style- high calcium- low fat- more vitamins- dietary fibre- sugar free- more proteins- low salt content- high energy booster- low artificial flavouring- high nutrition- low ajinomoto- cream of bird shit soup- soft yet spongy -yet fragrant- melts in your mouth- bird shit ice cream- chem- nuts- mad scientist- shy- katong laksa- dog- shitted- doorstep- free show- fresh from the oven- leftovers- coconut milk- pet dog- attracts butterflies- ru hua- the cakes dog bake- shapes more artistic- watery or ugly oval lumps- proud of yourself- future philosopher- poet li bai- poet chunying- pro pro- 6 o clock- dolphin bay- taiwan idol drama- chinese doll- cry- vcd- weekends- geog- agriculture- sleep- tourism- smarter- brain block
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Just came across this in a book by Andrew Mattews
BE FLEXIBLE!
Here's a new recipe for PERMANENT misery...
Decide how you think the world SHOULD be.
Then, when life doesn't obey our rules, get angry!
That's what miserable people do!
Let's say you expect that:
*People SHOULD appreciate you.
*Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
*Your best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.
Sounds reasonable...
but often, these things won't happen!
So you end up frustrated.
Happy people make fewer DEMANDS on life.
Instead, they have PREFERENCES!
They say:
"I would prefer "A" but if "B" happens, it's OK too!"
I PREFER the neighbours to be quiet,
but if they make a noise, I can handle it.
I PREFER people to see my point of view,
but when they disagree, it is OK.
You have preferences about the outcome of your plans,
but you accept WHATEVER happens.
So your mission today?
Instead of making DEMANDS on life and people,
have PREFERENCES.
There are two ways to become happier:
a) Change the world, or
b) Change your thinking
It is easier to change your thinking!
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PROVERBS
Every heart knows its own bitterness and no one else can share its joy.
~Proverbs 14:10
The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.
~Proverbs 15:4
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
~Proverbs 11:2
~Proverbs 142
1 I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.
2 I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.
4 Look to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
5 I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."
6 Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
7 Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.
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